Christmas Cheer?

           SO... I was inspired by my good friend Catherine to start a blog.  I am all about trying to document my life through videos and photos, so why not dabble in the blogging world! Now whether I actually keep up with this... well only time will tell I suppose.

          Tomorrow is Christmas Eve and as usual the Christmas Cheer has me very excited! But this christmas has me feeling very mixed feelings.  This is the first christmas I will have with divorced parents and two separate home units.  Just writing that sentence felt strange.  Here I am about to be 17 and now my parents decide to split up? It still doesn't seem fair.  It makes me sad to realize that the old christmas traditions will never truly be the same despite both of their efforts to make it so.  When I look ahead to the future (something I am way too guilty of) it makes me sad to know that it will always be this way.  Sure it will get easier as time goes on but it will never go back to the old ways.  There is a part of me that feels the Christmas Cheer, but the other part of me is in mourning.  Mourning for the old days,when life was simpler and there was a Santa.